Ted Haggard: I’d still rather be the way I am now—broke, a man of disrepute—than have “that HORRIFIC INTERNAL STRUGGLE”

Transcribed by Jeff Fenske from The Trials of Ted Haggard, HBO 2009

“I’d still rather be the way I am now, though,
and broke,
and a man of disrepute,

than the way I was,
and have that horrific internal struggle
that I had.”

– Ted Haggard

Related: Asbury Revival, 1970: “Dr. Kinlaw, I am a liar. Now what do I do?” Let’s be free — love!!!

(video) Ex Porn Star’s Amazing Story: “For eight years, I battled the Devil for my life with the Word. I’d fall … I fell a little bit less … and I started WALKING TALL, like a CHAMPION!!!”

Transcribed by Jeff Fenske

Hurt people hurt people.

“Jesus says, ‘come to Me all you who are weary and need rest. Learn from Me. My burden is light.'”

‘Shelley, you can do it. What does My Word say? Try again.’ I’d fall. ‘Get back up and try again, Shelley.’ I’d fall. ‘Get back up and try again.’ I’d fall, again. I fell a little bit less. I’d fall less. And I started walking TALL, like a CHAMPION!”

For those of you who are viewing pornography right now, are you contributing to the destruction of human lives—little girls who always just wanted Dad to love them?

“Confess your sins so you may be healed.”

He’s humbling us for GREATNESS. He wants to conform us into the image of His Son!”

Ex Porn Star’s Amazing Story

Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben shares the truth about porn
and her amazing story in Anaheim California in 2008.

Links to video source:
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fus…
http://www.myspace.com/shelleylubben

“That’s how rebellious I was. My mother … never spanked me. See, I never had any discipline as a child. So by the time I’m a teenager, I’m the teenager from hell. … That’s why I have so much compassion for teenagers nowadays. When they act like that, I’m not mad at them. Where are the parents? Where are the fathers of this world? …

Well, the pimp became my new father. … I just wanted a hug growing up. I just wanted to feel special, and the pimp made me feel very special.”

Her daughter, Tiffany is in the audience.

“How many times God saved this ‘blessed assurance’ [from physical death]? I can’t even tell ya. Probably hundreds. … I used to think I was invincible. I found out later on in recovery it wasn’t me who was invincible. It was Somebody who was saving me—and sustaining me. Because, if it wasn’t for Jesus Christ I’d be in hell right now. I came close to death many, many times.”

For those of you who are viewing pornography right now, are you contributing to the destruction of human lives—little girls who always just wanted Dad to love them?

“They are made for greater things than porn, and so are you.”

When her husband-to-be (also in the audience) reached out to her with real love:
“He was a really nice guy. … I knew how black-hearted I was, and all the trauma. It was intense. It would hurt so bad that when someone got close to me I literally would have physical heart pain. ‘Oh…this guy’s showing me love. … Get out of here, get out of here, you’re bad for me, you’re bad.’ No, because you have that defense…. But the love…. He had Jesus in him.”

“That’s the big question in the sex industry… ‘where’s God?‘”

Shelley went to a church:
“[The pastor] just looked at me out of all the people and just said: ‘Do you know there’s a champion inside of you?’ You have to understand I hated myself, and this guy just spoke life in me!

“…either God’s going to heal me or I’m going to die. And for eight years, I battled the Devil for my life with the Word. … I’m totally healed from all the effects of the sex industry. I had horrible nightmares, constantly…. I stood on that Word until it became reality for me. I said, ‘no, this is what God says about me! … ‘You’re more than a conqueror through Christ! You can do all things through Christ!‘”

Recovery…, ‘I’m no good at it. It’s really hard. I can’t do it.’ And God would say, ‘Shelley, you can do it. What does My Word say? Try again.’ I’d fall. ‘Get back up and try again, Shelley.’ I’d fall. ‘Get back up and try again.’ I’d fall, again. I fell a little bit less. I’d fall less. And I started walking tall, like a CHAMPION!

“Jesus says, ‘come to Me all you who are weary and need rest. Learn from Me. My burden is light.'”

“He’s everything to me. He helps me. He gives me power, boldness, to make me a bold witness — fills me with His Spirit!

“…Daddy needs to keep me humble. … He’s humbling us for greatness. He wants to conform us into the image of His Son.”

I don’t care what sin you’ve done. … The Word says: ‘confess your sins so you may be healed.’ ‘Pray for one another that you may be healed.'”

Christ died to give you freedom. … He’s not here to beat you up. … In Galatians, it says, ‘you who are spiritual, gently restore the one who’s caught up in their trespasses.’ And it better be gentle! The Lord is the ‘Lord of gentleness.'”

Related:

(video) Ex Porn Star Tells the Hardcore Truth About Porn

ShelleyLubben.com

Former Porn Actress Shelley Lubben: Porn is Not Glamorous and Destroys Lives — “I used to brag endlessly to fans and pornographers about how I loved making porn movies. I lied 100% of the time to 100% of the people”

(video)Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben’s FREEDOM Testimony: The Champion in You!!!

(video) Shelley Lubben Former Porn Actress Finds Freedom in Christ — “I had to forgive everybody”

[ video ] Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben Speaks at Bakersfield Christian High School — “Do you know that you’re a CHAMPION?!”

Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben on The Howard Stern Show: Porn Stars are Demon Possessed!

Twelve Steps of Sex Addicts Anonymous involves getting right with those who’ve been hurt — so we can BE FREE! | I’m ADDING MORE STEPS.

(video) Freud, Zionism and Sexual Revolution: Resentment against Christ and Gentiles is a motivating factor in promoting sexual degeneration and pornography

[Lust “the poison that kills the soul” FREEDOM] My experience: How DEMONS DRIVE heterosexual and homosexual lust in ‘Christians’ — The bad news is that demons drive lust. The good news is that demons drive lust, because…

All of my Lust Freedom! posts. We can be free!!!

Who-Goes-To-Heaven Scriptures — Narrow is the Way We must be free!!!

(video) Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben’s FREEDOM Testimony: The Champion in You!!!

Transcribed by Jeff Fenske

“Do you know that there’s a champion in you?”

“It’s [speaking about this in front of all of you] not easy for me to do. But I have such a love for the men, which is a miracle. Cause I used to hate them, and now I absolutely adore all of you. You’re my brothers. I want to see you happy. I want to see you have what me and Garrett have….”

Shelley Lubben gives her remarkable testimony. Visit the myspace: http://www.myspace.com/shelleylubben Download a high resolution version of this file at: http://www.shelleylubben.com/video/ShelleyandMensSummit2.wmv

They abuse us, and we abuse them back.”

Pastors are getting knocked out left and right because of porn addiction.”

“‘Shelley, I only lift the humble.’ And I know right now there are men in this room who are struggling with pornography. Because stats say 50% of ‘Christian’ men are struggling.”

Husbands, love your wives,
even as Christ also loved the church,
and gave himself for it
.

Eph. 5:25

Related:

ShelleyLubben.com

(video) Ex Porn Star Tells the Hardcore Truth About Porn

Former Porn Actress Shelley Lubben: Porn is Not Glamorous and Destroys Lives — “I used to brag endlessly to fans and pornographers about how I loved making porn movies. I lied 100% of the time to 100% of the people”

(video) Ex Porn Star’s Amazing Story: “For eight years, I battled the Devil for my life with the Word. I’d fall … I fell a little bit less … and I started WALKING TALL, like a CHAMPION!!!”

(video) Shelley Lubben Former Porn Actress Finds Freedom in Christ — “I had to forgive everybody”

[ video ] Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben Speaks at Bakersfield Christian High School — “Do you know that you’re a CHAMPION?!”

Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben on The Howard Stern Show: Porn Stars are Demon Possessed!

Twelve Steps of Sex Addicts Anonymous involves getting right with those who’ve been hurt — so we can BE FREE! | I’m ADDING MORE STEPS.

[Lust “the poison that kills the soul” FREEDOM] My experience: How DEMONS DRIVE heterosexual and homosexual lust in ‘Christians’ — The bad news is that demons drive lust. The good news is that demons drive lust, because…

All of my Lust Freedom! posts. We can be free!!!

Who-Goes-To-Heaven Scriptures — Narrow is the Way We must be free!!!

(video) Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben tells the hardcore truth about porn in church

Shelley Lubben gives her testimony in Atlanta.

http://www.shelleylubben.com
http://www.myspace.com/shelleylubben

Related:

ShelleyLubben.com

Former Porn Actress Shelley Lubben: Porn is Not Glamorous and Destroys Lives — “I used to brag endlessly to fans and pornographers about how I loved making porn movies. I lied 100% of the time to 100% of the people”

(video) Ex Porn Star’s Amazing Story: “For eight years, I battled the Devil for my life with the Word. I’d fall … I fell a little bit less … and I started WALKING TALL, like a CHAMPION!!!”

(video)Ex Porn Star Shelley Lubben’s FREEDOM Testimony: The Champion in You!!!

(video) Shelley Lubben Former Porn Actress Finds Freedom in Christ — “I had to forgive everybody”

Twelve Steps of Sex Addicts Anonymous involves getting right with those who’ve been hurt — so we can BE FREE! | I’m ADDING MORE STEPS.

All of my Lust Freedom! posts. We can be free!!!

Who-Goes-To-Heaven Scriptures — Narrow is the Way We must be free!!!

Steve Vaus: “Renegades” — FREEeeeeeeeeee——-DOM Version!!!

Thank God for the renegades,
and the lives they lead
Far ahead of their time

Without the renegades,
Lord knows where we’d be
When it comes to heroes,
Renegades are mine

From Nazareth he came,
With a rag tag band
To bring, A revolution

Some would make Him King,
others couldn’t stand for that
The cross, Was a solution

But he rose again,
and wise men follow him
He rose again,
and wise men follow him

Related: Steve Vaus: “We Must Take America Back” 2009 [new version, High Quality]

[video] Willful Ignorance: Actively Resisting the Truth and Truth-tellers

Transcribed by Jeff Fenske from the video, below.

The Problem

“The truth is not comfortable,
and never will be.

We choose our own comfortable doctrine,
and build our doctrines and belief around that foundation. …

When an opposing view is presented,
we resist it without giving it much thought.”

“We’ve become illiterate financially, historically, morally, spiritually, etc.,
and will chastise or harm the person who challenges us to think.”

“We argue and sometimes fight
when our belief system is challenged
.”

The Solution

True attainment of knowledge, wisdom and truth is to:
weigh
the evidence,
then form an opinion,
leaving opportunities for additional learning in the future.”

* * *

Are Americans willfully ignorant or stupid

Related:

SPIRAL OF SILENCE: People tend to remain silent when they feel that their views are in the minority — Neumann wondered WHY the GERMANS SUPPORTED WRONG POLITICAL OPINIONS that led to national defeat, humiliation and ruin in the 1930s-1940s

From Willful Ignorance through Cognitive Dissonance to “Could I Be Wrong?”

WordPower: BEWARE, in the LAST DAYS People Will Be WILLINGLY IGNORANT

Baruch: “Not only is DECEPTION of the church possible, it WAS PROPHESIED TO HAPPEN!” — Jesus said “IN THE LAST DAYS THE MAJORITY WILL BE DECEIVED, take heed that it doesn’t happen to you” — “FALSE TEACHERS are actually SPEAKING SPELLS with the words of their FALSE DOCTRINES!”

[Willfully ignorant] Dr. Doug Rokke: People won’t acknowledge what the US has really done because the foundation for everything they’ve believed and what they’ve trusted literally collapses…

[FreedomQuote] ‎”I Would Rather Know The Ugly Truth Than A Beautiful Lie”

[FreedomQuote] “It’s hard to accept the truth when the lies were exactly what you wanted to hear.”

[FreedomQuote] Patrick Henry: “For my part, whatever anguish of spirit it may cost, I am willing to know the whole truth; to know the worst, and to provide for it.” — I’ll take the red pill, thank you, to totally live in reality no matter what! FREEeeeeeeeeeeeeee——————DOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Psychologists Explain 911 Denial: Fear, Pride, Exceptionalism… (Why aren’t most people willing to even look at what the Bible really says about who goes to heaven — the most important issue?!)

Gandhi: Widespread Belief Doesn’t Make an Error True

HeartQuotes: Truth — “A thing does not therefore cease to be true because it is not accepted by many” – Spinoza

“Truth … lies in the depth where few are willing to search for it.”

From Willful Ignorance through Cognitive Dissonance to “Could I Be Wrong?”

From: 1984USA.com

[…]

Willful Ignorance, Cognitive Dissonance, & The Kubler-Ross Model

In the diagram above, the decision block labeled COULD I BE WRONG?” is the kingpin of advancing forward in consciousness and knowledge.

The $64,000 question is “Will somebody ask that question of themselves?

WILLFULLY IGNORANT: A large consortium of people are, as Biblically mentioned, Willfully Ignorant. They actively exert force and pressure to remain in a condition of being uninformed or unaware, willfully. What is stupefying is that they exert more energy and waste more time to remain in this state than it takes to become informed and aware of what’s going on in the first place.

COGNITIVE DISSONANCE: Cognitive dissonance is a psychological state that describes the uncomfortable feeling when a person begins to understand that something the person believes to be true is, in fact, not true. Cognitive dissonance is often associated with the tendency for people to resist information that they don’t want to think about, because if they did it would create uncomfort, and perhaps require them to act in ways that depart from their comfortable habits. They usually have at least partial awareness of the information, without having moved to full acceptance of it, and are thus in a state of denial about it. This “irrational inability to incorporate rational information” is perhaps the most common perception of cognitive dissonance.

THE KUBLER-ROSS MODEL: This model was introduced by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross in her 1969 book “On Death and Dying”. The stages have become well-known as the “Five Stages of Grief”. Kübler-Ross originally applied these stages to any form of catastrophic personal loss (job, income, freedom). They can also be applied to the process of “coming to grip with reality” in accepting devastating truth. Kübler-Ross also claimed these steps do not necessarily come in the order noted below, nor are all steps experienced by all people, though she stated a person will always experience at least two.

The stages are:

1. Denial: “It can’t be happening.”
2. Anger: “Why me? It’s not fair.”
3. Bargaining: “Just let me live to see my children graduate.”
4. Depression: “I’m so sad, why bother with anything?”
5. Acceptance: “It’s going to be OK.”

Are You Mentally Ready To Learn The Truth?

If you can’t make a conscious effort to overcome your mental programming, you cannot leave the little circle of “those who are fooled all the time.”

Read Entire Article

Related:

SPIRAL OF SILENCE: People tend to remain silent when they feel that their views are in the minority — Neumann wondered WHY the GERMANS SUPPORTED WRONG POLITICAL OPINIONS that led to national defeat, humiliation and ruin in the 1930s-1940s

Willful Ignorance: Actively Resisting the Truth and Truth-tellers

WordPower: BEWARE, in the LAST DAYS People Will Be WILLINGLY IGNORANT

Psychologists Explain 911 Denial: Fear, Pride, Exceptionalism… (Why aren’t most people willing to even look at what the Bible really says about who goes to heaven — the most important issue?!)

[Willfully ignorant] Dr. Doug Rokke: People won’t acknowledge what the US has really done because the foundation for everything they’ve believed and what they’ve trusted literally collapses…

Baruch: “Not only is DECEPTION of the church possible, it WAS PROPHESIED TO HAPPEN!” — Jesus said “IN THE LAST DAYS THE MAJORITY WILL BE DECEIVED, take heed that it doesn’t happen to you” — “FALSE TEACHERS are actually SPEAKING SPELLS with the words of their FALSE DOCTRINES!”